Feels Good after Marathon.
Pretty sure it's just my way of saying I've accomplish something this Half of the Year. The next half will be for my Game Design work and trying to find a long term job that I enjoy. Not saying I dislike my current job at NEA but I am sure if I have a related diploma or degree, NEA will be much willing to accept and give me a long term job. It feels I am doing something for the community and earning money in the meantime. I accept the pay and put in my best for every working day, hopefully that can continue as I am really enjoying my time at NEA.

Thoughts during Marathon,
Pretty much ambition took over and I am at what I am best at: Focus. One Single Object to focus my energy on. I didn't feel as tired compared to the other 2 Marathons. And I was psyching myself up for the next half of the year creating games.
Was interesting seeing an uncle wearing standard Kopitiam wear, carrying plastic bag and jogging for 42k. Pretty much for the 5 half hours plus, I was just alternating between Focusing on one step at a time, next Hydration point and chio bu to look out for. It was good, but i felt empty by the 40k mark.

Came home, slept 7 hours, chill abit then i decided to look at her FB profile. Do not know what I am doing. Just needed to know she is ok and still smiling. Better without me that I learn to accept over the years. Just that tiny tinge of familiarity lingering somewhere when we haven't even communicated since 9 years ago. I have a long ass memory when I am overwhelmed by strong emotions.

Ambition and my goals is what I have to carry me forward. Till then my best smile is when I am mocking myself for being a fool.