Progress

I think not going JC and getting into Uni is biting on my Ass.

Although seriously i still hated the fact that I have to be forced into worrying daily about my grades. I do not feel there's Support coming from my Family. Studies and Grades is what they care about only. Dreams are different. If your dreams is to be a Doctor, Lawyer, etc Rich profession, they will care about it.

I am currently working on creating an RPG. Just a one-man job. Rough idea on the setting but I am not sure about Storyline and Characters. Trying to follow the Dream is difficult.
Finding a Time to properly concentrate on work is hard. Morning and Afternoon, cant concentrate due to constant noise and Mom moving about. Only time I am able to focus is after Dinner till everyone is asleep. Thus I wake late as well, resulting in a cycle of night owl-ing.

Working on getting more productive hours in as well. I am slowly replacing Gaming hours with Productive work. I am feeling I should go back to having a job then working on Game while resting. But I am sure It wont Happen.

Thus this 2 months has been great. Slowly working on my Dreams and recuperating from all the shitty Drama at work. Why cant I just Fking do my stuff, be it at work or home. I cant just ignore stuff i pick up on my 5 senses.



So as usual, its probably something about that relationship I had that affects me.
I remember talking to my colleagues in Pactera during lunch that I had this sorta bgr. Surprisingly they seem pretty chill compared to my NSmen. Telling me it seem like we had something going on, just that it broke apart. And that i am still somehow holding on to it.
Thinking about stuff cause I just watched Our Times ,我的少女時代. Felt tears welling up, same as in You Are the Apple of My Eye, 那些年，我们一起追的女孩. But You Are the Apple of My Eye hits harder and is closer to my Heart.
As always, I only wish I am able to talk to her again.