Admin spec, i truly don't know if tats the best place I can be. I want to do more, but I am limited by my personality. I dont know how best to think on my feet, thus I seem slow resulting In lots of awkward moments. Master Ben put me in 48 for a reason, I feel I am to do something, be it big Or small, I need to feel I am contributing. Feels lonely as well, Having people siam and deflect arrows... Tts the worst part, taking advantage of each other. Am I too "pure" to believe such things shouldn't happen, And have them take it like a true fren? This game of thrones, is already v tiring. Dying in the first season, sucks. Truly weirded out by myself. Drank 2 shots of vodka when I went drinking last week. Then spent 2 days looking thru a website full of the most gorgeous Women while doing guard duty on 12 June. No matter how hard, it sticks as part of my history. Then the torrent of questions came agn. It's a dying wish to get them answered. Can't wait to ord. Then I can focus on portfolio.