Now awaiting my posting. Makes me wonder if I really am of the top 30% of my cohort. I do my work diligently, make sure I am on time and seldom late. But I am not able to communicate properly, thus as what MSG Ben said, perhaps I am indeed going to 48th, as an Ops Spec. In the Army, I am at that stage where I cant care about anyone nor am I willing to make friends with anyone as my definition of friendship is something different. I really cant see having another friendship as Jason. I am confident that he will forgive me for who I am and certain actions that I might make being who I am. Those friends that I have in Armor, are those that I learn to work with, not who I truly trust. Their way of deepening their friendship includes smoking and drinking, which I am never a part of. And because I am their Platoon mate, they expect me to be somewhat warm to them as well... That's irritating. Personally, I believe throughout their life, they've always outcast those introverts and never understood the way they function. Most of my misunderstandings happened that way. And I never apologize to those I deem unworthy of apologizing. If I am willing to risk being an enemy, it means they will never be a friend and I will never seek to do anything for them. On to the point about K, Kok Wee. He is interesting, being like a totally opposite to me, yet pretty similar. He desires to be in charge, to have things happen his way as such he speaks up and most of the time ruins the others. And he has that confrontational way of speaking that isn't applicable in the Army context. Yet he admitted he appreciates silence and wondered if he could have been like me. Also how the others treat him is truly horrifying. How they isolate him and find ways behind his back to mess up his stay. I mean, is what he did truly that deserving of the treatment I've seen the others do? As a friend and, like Ivan says "Someone who chiong suah with me for so many months", this phrase... makes me fed up. We should've talked through and made sure K understands and convince him. Or at least make the effort to tell him straight up that we are doing this and this because of what you did, if you want to be back in the group then do this and this. Haiz. Its been so many months, I wonder if I truly know who my section mates are w/o learning to smoke, drink and party.