I suppose i kinda miss being in groups.
being alone made me think about people i miss,
which leads to thinking too much about those that you really miss.
It hurts so bad that i had to vent it out.
I typed what i felt in a .txt file, then still wanted to sent it,
as I felt i still needed to express what i feel.

I think i will still do it even if i've done.
I want to know people, like big groups of 30?
Lots of people i remember, though not as best as their bffs but
i still remember them.

I suppose the next big group of people i will meet is my NS squad/platoon.
I cant wait for 2 years of worry-about-nothing cept NS.
Ladies? Maybe once I am out working.
So i guess i will still have to trouble her for some more of my vent.
I really hope she doesnt get really depressed and miss out on stuff,
not as if i still have that much of an impact in her life anymore.
Perhaps the words i typed did...
I do not know but probably, she's gotten over it.

I need something awesome to memorize, like Geog or Hist.
Some paper to prepare for, but i cant force myself to remember random facts,
for a self-imagined paper.
I really intend to learn cooking if i live alone.
Not cook some spaghetti, and worry cy tt much, lol.

I think its because mainstream movies always have happy endings tts why they affect me that much.
To me, life is seldom happy.
Life never ends, unless I die.

Hm, i dont think i will ever get high, or feel high.
I think I am lacking Emotion.
The kinda high I feel comes from self projects rather then activities involving other people.
Am I that selfish?

I really like the word self-comforting.