Weak
Weak
Weak

I think i am weak.
Its because i am weak, i caused people pain and misery.
Its beacause I am weak, they will forget me.

I will not apologize for my actions
because once acted upon, cant be un-acted upon.
I know what made me do it, but do they?
I know what made me weak, but why cant I make myself strong again?

Being alone in the house feels different.
Somehow awesome, somewhat depressing.
But they are back today =(

I suppose a definite Yes or No is really hard to come by in this gray grey world.
Yet my brain works that way.
My heart works that way.

Perhaps being too faithful is a Lousy thing.
I need to start looking for options.
To get my mind off... stuff.
Memories feel real to me, i seek them in the present and wish to keep them with me in the future.
4 years is still too short, perhaps a decade.
My life is slow and steady, the one lives fast and furious like the typical S'porean.

Perhaps leaving this country is my option.
To experience other beauties.
For her safety.