Hm, had a good game of League, log on to Facebook, talked to Lou, open tab for Ay blog, read thru Facebook then steeled myself for her blog.

Fear of dying huh, hm.
I feel pretty sad and understood something I guess.
On different paths, we walk and thus cant come together.
Took me really long but finally i put it into words.

If I really wanted it, I woulda went JC and not be emo so long.
Guess I didnt want it bad enough.
Tomorrow is the day i start a regular job at an office, doing work.
In the hopes I strive and achieve.
The present and the future.

Still want to do a PostApocalyptic Singapore Like Fallout 3 and NV.
By 2015 National Day I hope to release the mod.


Well, someone close she was with huh.
there is still a tinge of jealousy when i read that sentence. not enough to rage mode.
but to understand and push myself.
I am of the past.
If we meet in the future, I will be better.
A mistake I have to live with.