Is it weird for me to get all hyped over a display pict on Fb?
that one pict gave me a sort of energy spike that lasted 1 whole week.
gave me hope that i can continue on when i am having a minor bout of 'depression'
ive stared at that pict, trying somehow to get it in mind that the jedi mind trick will never work against women, cept Starwars movies.
ive stared at it several times since then, each a couple mins.
Perhaps thats the real reason i could never give up.
with facebook, its easier to somehow 'stalk' someone you have in mind.
i knew that she someday will eventually post a dp of her.
and its the cutest ive seen compared to all the others out there.
i hope she doesnt remove it, but she might.

today ive got that tingly feeling since at amk library.
i heard a familar voice not hers.
maybe i am dead wrong this time and that ive always dream that i will see her amidst the crowd someday, its just an illusion.

i cant use this sort of energy to create,
it gives me the negative force that makes me brood on it.
so much that i dont think several games of tf2 will help.