been a long time.
spent my hols mulling over stuff
really hate who ive become
ive been thinking, thinking so hard that its hard to get stuff done
i need a purpose
i had a purpose
i need a real solid one
little short term ones dont mean much to me
ive gotta know, gotta plot my path meticulously
i need to carry on but i cant

somehow perhaps i should have taken the jc route
keeps me from thinking that much
i think i need something to occupy me, give me a goal and entertain me

somehow i doubt singapore can provide the stuff i seek
the future is bleak
i cant see where i want to go.

people change i wonder if i have changed.