i've been feeling depressed lately

no mood to do anything cept slacking
4 months in the same seat is really taking its toll
i cant even get started on what needs to be done

is life really this difficult?
i want to model out this epic level for UDK yet i couldnt
following the tuts i think i am the dumbest person around

Both mind and body are wasted away
how do i carry on

this really sounds like a suicidal thought


somehow, i've always thought of her everytime i get this sort of 'periods'
its seriously wrong of me to continue after so long
wat is WRONG WITH ME???

people dont get what i am trying to say because i am messed up
brains a swirling mess of thoughts
i need a long holiday

i've never believe in religious prayer
mayhaps i need them to get it over
playing games make me feel the void
being imitations of life themselves, they lack the life and interaction of actual human to human relationship.

i feel so empty.

i wanna talk to lou
but... i dont know waht to say

i wanna talk to cy
but i dont know how to phrase my thoughts

i wanna talk to
but i fear i will overreact

pon-ning those lessons was easy, the thought of talking to them makes me shudder with fear.

Final Year feels really empty
the F office environment sucks
without the warmth of a class
having team projects just sucks

HAIZ.
Gonna Gunz.