here am i again
wondering wat meaning does life have
how does one continue doing his mundane monotonous life.
watching the little things in life helps
but how does one cope with the boredom
the boredom that comes from
reading those books u had read agn and agn
watching those animes u had watched agn and agn
playing those games u had played agn and agn
finding new things,
u wont feel safe
the need to invest more time and money?
no way.

holidays
a time to work and play
how does one even balance them?
i prefer bursts of each
thus i spent 1/2 of my hols playing/slacking/daydreaming
the nxt half, i wonder if i can finish my work on time.
i really need a break
not some half-assed 2 weeks working spree
tat i wasted 1/2 of it not doing anything

the only thing keeping me frm stopping
is the desire to see each person i know become who they are in the future.
mine looks kinda bleak now.

once i can work patiently till 10
then chat happily till 12
it was a time when those 2 hours are therapautic
mayb tts who i need, another listener in my life.

talking to anna agn made me livelier for the day
somehow i still felt that special connection
that my instincts tell me
yet somehow it reminded me of how
i will possibly treat her if she really became my gf

will it be thru counselling that i can get myself out of this stupor?
i feel like a drunk cept that its this meaningless routine that i m stuck to
nothing much now keeps me entertained for long

i want to stop and think
but i keep stopping to worry.