1 year back it never occur to me that i will never do anything seriously without the thought that this certain thing i do will help me be closer to her
now what i do is for a passion,
although i do things a little slower, i dont feel a need to do everything perfectly
i can do it my way, my style, my pace
a portion of who i am still denies 1 fact till now.
then again, its blind, jus keeping that image in my mind
sooner or later i will have forget even her face
and i tink she would have forgotten bout me
for i bring much sadness into her starry world
i feel i have done little to make her remember me.
humans remember happiness more then sadness,
i m sure someone would have filled the gap long ago
someone who can bring happiness, companionship
much more like a friend, but closer.
i "marry" myself to my work, hobbies and games now,
wait i said, till when? others replied. till... i dont noe
mayb the next time we meet, i will be behind looking at this familar back, close beside some other person
i sure hopes he noes how to Gunz and fence. then will i submit peacefully.