there is ever this time when u feel that u have grown,
the difference between who u were and who u are now.
this 1 yr did me well i tink
for me i have matured enough
somehow all the long tiring periods i spend "counselling " louisa is rewarding
to me,
its a test of how i can keep a friend, convince them and to keep them
after being "hacked, uprooted and trashed",
it seems to me i can never ever keep a close relationship with someone
till of cos louisa and chun yin.
long periods of talk and counselling we provide for each other created strong bonds with each other. this i noe will last on long enough
friends can "taunt" each other without fear of the other being angry, if said at the right moment and timing.
today, i missed the chance to talk to anna (i tink), jus because i nid to go to the toilet. louisa did a brave thing yesterday.
she "confronted" that guy and gotten some answers,
me, i m still stuck on whether i should "confront" anna.
well, of cos i noe she has moved on. 3 days isnt long but its a first.
mayb its the mentality
with every part of the human anatomy i try to draw well
i tell myself
this represents that certain part of anna
so i mus draw her well.
but then now, all i have is still the feeling, much i have forgotten
replacements are everywhere
but the feelings bind a person to another.
i hope to sort them out personally, face to face if possible
if only she could tell me what i wan to noe
and i could tell her what she wan to noe.
devils, one mus face before moving on to greater heights.
that i noe for sure.

its 10 pm
was the time i enjoyed the most, most anxious to reach and longed for it to stay.
sms reminds me of the obssessive thought i had, now its passed, and i hope to keep the friendship.