when chances are given, its best to make use of it

it was a sunday
still remembered the event was supposed to be remembered forever
it all began wonderfully
but it ended terribly

maybe i really pinned too much on her
too much that it really stressed her out too much
shouldnt have told her
made me felt even more hurt
now its aching to want to make it up to her.

but i hardly know how it can be done.
why is everyone playing DEPRESSION?
now it gets to me....

cant even think.
cant even function.
wats the use,
wheres the purpose in life,
if one cant even enjoy??

maybe its temporary
after 7 months
will it be back where it was??
did it even actually end??
or rather started??

maybe i force too much
people need space, people nid personal space
and
people to listen to their woes and cries of pain
being misunderstood
To please everyone,
one has sacrificed,
many did their best,
but was it enough??
that sacrifice
cant be seen, heard, felt
even by those i deemed closest, most reliable, and confidant

why does that person has to absorb all that??
to please and satisfy that over-bearing father??
to solve all problems??
to hide inside his cave??
and continue hiding??
wat for?

BECAUSE NO ONE WILL PULL HIM OUT.
HE TRIED TO GET ONE, BUT SHE DIDNT LET HIM.
SHE WAS SUFFERING TOO.....

why did ever 2 suffering the same fate ppl even tried to get together??
to suffer even more??
he tried to solve everyones problem
but get even more problems.
now its pushing him to the edge.....

but i will save him.
he had never been this state before.....
not even once when she sorta neglected him
even when all his efforts were for her, living his life, continuing just because of her.
he told me once, he was ready to fall forever into despair
but i told him,
there's still hope
as long as she isnt someone's.

FIGHT FOR HIS HAPPINESS, SOMEONE TOLD HIM THAT
BUT DID THAT SOMEONE TOLD HIM THAT BECAUSE SHE DIDNT WANT HIM TO BE LIKE THAT TOO??
SUGGESTIONS ARE MOST OFTEN GIVEN WHEN PEOPLE DONT WANT OTHERS TO FOLLOW IN THEIR FOOTSTEPS.
IT NEVER CAME TRUE.

i wanted her to at least be near me once.
to not see me and turn her back on me.
to take a walk with her one day
and at most hold hands.
thats all i wanted, others i dont want to think of
the future's unpredictable.....
present is what i work for,
the past is what i work on

having doubts about myself again
opened up
because i wanted to get closer,
because i wanted to meet her,
all because i like her too much
and cant let go of my dream

i did let go once
and i sunk into a pit
till her light roused me from that slumber.

HOPING TO SEE HER SMILE EVERYDAY
HOPING TO HOLD HANDS WITH HER
HOPING ALL CRITICISMS TO STOP INSTEAD LET ME TAKE THE BRUNT AND I WILL STAND TALL AND STRONG.