so unlucky...
juz cos i didnt go lib yesterday...
i missed something...
i didnt wan it to dwell on my mind.
i didnt wan to continue dreaming.
its time to wake up.
But then again...
dreams always happen, the best always happen when one's in dreamland...
in dreams,
u can fall and get up,
u can get kick around, and be stronger late game.
but is it possible in reality??
everything happens to our expectations in dreams.

awards...
wat r they??
plain recognition for ur hardwork??
or something ppl can use it to say nasty things bout u.
ppl will say tt u used "links" with the higher authority...
ppl will say lots of things behind ur back...
then u realise,

tt even ur frens will say something bad bout u.
tt ppl will see a different u.
tt ppl will start to suspect u.

awards...
u get it, juz accept lor.
but in e first place...
jus dont try lor...
tts wat i feel...
i got an award b4.
i got so f up cos of all the "small talk" behind my back...
tt i dont even care to get any more award.

for me,
i still wonder if my tt award really came because i had hardwork...
becos i did so many things 4 NCC,
LOL.
i tink i m the best person for tt award.
i m easily manipulated...
scared of CLTs mah...
can control like wat sir des lim say.

haha.
but i figured it out...
all the other awards...
i give my hardworking top4 to get.
i get or not... same BUC points for AMK.
if not... they not happy...
awards to recognise them.
XD

*AND I STILL MAINTAIN TT LINKS HELP PPL GET AWARDS.... POSTS... and other things*